My Heart. . .

So, for those of you who don't know Bryan and I have been trying to get pregnant for about 18 months now. There are many reasons that we haven't been able to but obviously the real reason is God feels it is not our time right now. I know that He will bless us with great things in our lives and for right now we are in a season of learning. There are many things I am learning, I am learning that ultimately no matter how much I can prepare or plan anything God's plans are ultimately the best thing for me/us, I am learning that I need to rejoice in EVERYTHING (whether that means that several friends are getting pregnant around me I still NEED to be joyful!), and there are many other things I could go on about but I won't. :) If I am not joyful in the good and bad then how can I claim to be doing God's will for my life??? I do not believe that our holy and precious Heavenly Father desires for us to be resentful or bitter, especially over our wants!! I am oh so grateful for the friends that God has brought into my life to keep me encouraged and to keep me accountable! Some of the friends that are keeping me encouraged are the ones that are pregnant and bless their hearts they are continually sensitive to me and my feelings, even when they don't need to be. ;) Some of my other friends keep asking me/telling me how difficult it must be to see other friends getting what I so desire. What I don't think they understand is that I am at peace with whatever God's will for our lives is. I truly am happy for the couples that God has already blessed with the gift of children and continues to bless. I know that our time will come and in that time I am sure that someone else will be in my shoes and I just hope that I can be an encouragement to them just as all these other women in my life have been to me. So THANK YOU to the women out there in my life that have been so uplifting and encouraging to me!! I praise and thank God daily for you and you know who you are!! :)

Abba, Father, I know that your plans for our lives is much greater than any of us could ever dream of!! You know what's best for me and my family. I thank you for every blessing You have given Bryan and I throughout the years!! Please just help me to continue to have a positive outlook on everything You put in my path. Please help other women who are in my same situation to have the same outlook towards your perfect will. Please bless the women in my life that have let me cry on their shoulder and lifted my spirit when I needed it, Lord. You are more awesome and powerful than words could ever describe! Thank you!!
In your son's holy and precious name,
AMEN!!!!